HAHAHA! I LOVE this part of Season 2 Ep 8 of One Tree Hill. Oh yeah,I picked any one random episode from Season 1 and 2 to watch when I reached home. Surprisingly, I picked episodes I hoped was the one I wanted and I got it. They are my favourite episodes for both seasons. Season 1's ep 6 was when Brooke got high on painkillers,Nathan was with Lucas,Peyton with Haley,yeah. It's not really of good quality cos it was taken by the phone with only a pair of hands. :)

{ 10:54 PM }

{ 8:24 PM }

Hello. I am now in the room dipping both my legs in ice water. Like 6 scoops of ice and water. It was cold in the beginning but it's getting warmer or my leg's just getting numb. Anyway,nothing much happened today. Had the most terrible sleep,had gym and school.

Malay was quite slack. Note to Cikgu,

{ 5:27 PM }

Today has to be the worst day of my life so far. It's just bad and I hate it. Screw those unreasonable ones. Adults,unfortunately,you are not always right and we youths have our own thinking. We don't think the same way as you guys do. So DO NOT assume that what you think will be what WE think.

That's my message for today. Good Night!
{ 9:24 PM }

I remembered that Thinking Day was on the 22nd and Thinking Day Celebration was yesterday.

So to Brownies and Girl Guides,

HAPPY BELATED THINKING DAY!

Ah,how I wish I was able to celebrate and get high singing Cannibal King or Gako Geko and all songs. I still can remember the promise. :)

Okay,I shall get on with my assignments. Hope y'all had a Good Day! :)
{ 5:01 PM }

After the announcement,we went HIGH!

Us!

{ 4:21 PM }

This week was so busy I barely had time to blog in school. Anyway,so many things happened in 24x5 hours. Busy with school work,training and YOG Final Countdown thing which we-Hamizah,Joleen,Krista,Shafiqah,Angela,Elisa,Jamie,Fudin and myself went to the Padang dressed up as Greeks.

The paint sucked,I sort of regretted when the paint started having it's own wrinkles. We looked UGLY I swear butttt... On the bright side,we enjoyed ourselves. Like really really enjoy. I haven't been that HIGH in a LONGGGG time!

Of course,by now,all of you know that Singapore won and those who were at the Padang,all of us felt the same-seconds before the announcement. Picture speaks a thousand words so I'll upload them in the next post. :D

School has been fairly busy. Too many to do in so little time. And it's gonna be the start of March soon... Competition's calling. It's near,damn near! I'm gonna fail my Science this module and my hmm Math maybe cos I seriously have no idea what's going on and Math Test is next week! Kill me,will you? Some would love to.

Training has been quite tiring. It's either i've got no more energy by the time training starts or i just needed sleep. (Is it the same?) We did a total of 2 intervals this week,2 gym sessions and one Time Trial. The Speed Gate cocked up when I was running so didn't get the timing. OH well,there'll always be another time..

Sahibba today was okay. GOOD experience! Before and after rounds,my competitors and I talked. We had quite a lot to talk about and the fact that we're girls,that's a plus point to get to know each other. :)

And I realised that my Malay suck in terms of impromptu convos/interview. Really suck! Maybe my Bahasa Baku was okay but my content,gone case! Anyone has ANY ideas on how to improve on impromptu convos and such??

Went back with Mus and slept the whole train trip back. Was super tired... My neck was super duper ultra painful when I woke up... Tsk.

Okay,I feel like taking a nap if I can and if my mum allows me to cos it is Asar now. Hope you're having a Good Day peepz! :D

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I just rmbred something! Me and Ilma laughed our asses off on Monday night! It was the most hilarious night I've had so far. I really don't know how we ended up laughing like assholes close to Lights Out time. It was Ilma's infectious laugh and she said it was mine so yes,laughhhh like crazy.

Oh there was a bat flying on I forgot what day and it was quite scary. It almost flew into my room but retreated and flew into the washrooms.

Got my first two demerit points cos we didn't switch off the fans. WHICH WE DID! Maybe they checked when Sha haven't come back from training yet and all of us left already. CWS was sweeping the corridors and wiping the railings of levels that no one was assigned to. So Sha and I did on level 2 and 3.. Still got one more hour to clear.....
{ 4:00 PM }

Okay. So the previous post was a bit emo. Won't delete but will change the font colour.

Anywayyy,yesterday had the Sahibba briefing. We waited like an hour plus for the thing to start. Azwan and I are going to be competing cos Syafiq and Khai have selection trials next week.

Went back with Mus. A LOT OF STUPID THINGS HAPPENED!! First,we were kicking each other's legs then there was this lorry who honked and it sounded WORST than a trumpet.

Second,it was the tiles at KFC. The side tiles. I pulled my chair and three of them fell out. It was really dumb and so I changed sides.

Third,I left my wallet at the straw and whatever counter there,

Fourth,Mus's tray of food fell. Like the WHOLE tray fell and all she had left was Cheese Fries. HAHAHAHA! But thanks to the uncle,he gave her replacements.

When we left,the KFC man chased Mus and gave her,her wallet back. So then we talked the whole train ride back. And Mus,I DID LISTEN TO YOUR STORIES.

I slept at 2pm. Wanted to wake up at 4pm but ended waking up at 7pm. Then had Alinur's birthday celebration. I played with Kakak's camera. Pretty cool.

Hanged out with the cousins and yeah. Slept at 2am. I feel so bad cos I didn't go for madrasah and my sisters went. Tsk tsk!

I shall finish up the project now. Good Day!
{ 9:51 AM }

Friends, we're all lost.
We don't know what we're doing.

We have doubts,
Even in ourselves.

We're broken.

Win or lose,
We gain nothing.
Nothing at all.

We want to reunite.
But it'll be too complicated then.

So what do we do now,my friends?
How do we go through this together?
As friends,
As what we used to be.
{ 11:46 PM }

School has been okay. Yesterday was kinda boring and I was really tired by the end of the day. Like training sucked. I couldn't perform. The workout was okay but after the second striding I was half dead already. :/

After SST was seriously BORING! It was kind of the most boring day ever. A lot of us were complaining. Anyway,at 10pm when I wanted to go up together with Wendy and Hamizah,we decided to join Joleen,Angela and Krista. So all of us talked to Miss Ying Shya for quite long went up talked to Ilma and Sha again then slept.

I think the most interesting part was when Sha was singing "ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOP..." and Miss Ying Shya continued "QRSTUV". Sha was doing her English then and me and Ilma had to make up some excuse saying we were helping Sha.

Anyway,the Singapore Slingers match on Wednesday was QUITE entertaining. But Singapore can improve of course. On the whole,it was okay.

Training today was okay. Wasn't THAT tiring but the weather was kinda hot.

I died during Science by the way. Like really dead. Was listening,can process a bit but i didn't have the energy to even speak up right until we had a Talking Rot session.

I HAVE A LOT OF HOMEWORK! and I'm tired. Im gonna do a bit then sleep. Goodnight!
{ 10:20 PM }

I am currently doing absolutely nothing right now.

Today was okay. Math was normal,combined classes with Cikgu Shafiee's class. Did a paper 2 exercise. And had CDP after lunch. We played the Who Wants To Be A Millionaire game as we did last year. Kinda fun screaming and shouting out right/wrong answers for them to think twice. :)

Oh,I have no training btw. Cos we did gym and jumps in the morning. Tomorrow will be our "last" Macritchie training till May. I heard it was the last so I'm expecting IT IS the last.

I haven't finish my letter and summary for malay so yes,I am dead. Or I hope Cikgu will extend it. It's a Higher Malay paper and it's kind of difficult. Oh well,got Science tmr and the whole class will be in trouble I guess.

I am going to rest and relax while waiting for Krista to go for dinner. Chaoxzx peoplezxz! Good Day!
{ 4:49 PM }

{ 4:22 PM }

Nothing much happened yesterday. I was CLOSE to getting 6 demerit points for room problem reasons. Never off fan la,lights la,never lock door,dirty room. Butttt my room is all clean now. :D

After mopping,talked to Ilma and Sha. Just NORMAL stuff. ;) Hamizah was using the laptop and then I talked to her after that.

Oh yeah,I got back my History results and I'm pretty happy bout it. :)

Today's lessons were OKAY. I mean not too exciting not too boring but I kept yawning and tearing. I fell asleep during psycho and left strokes on my paper. Slept for 25 mins before training. I was really tired!

Training was okay today. Not that tough but do expect a tough one on Thursday at Macritchie. :(

After SST was havoc. We started making out names and mine was Habijah. -.- ILMA made it for me and she started doing a different voice saying "Hi,my name is Nurul Habijah". HAHAHA! Sat with the pesilats cos Sha wanted to go there. They're entertaining really!

Okay,I shall head to bed now. Been sleeping kinda late these days. Goodnight!
{ 10:32 PM }

While waiting for my parents,I shall blog about the holiday.

Well,the holiday was SHORT! Like seriously short. It was as though yesterday I came home from school and I'm off to school again for another week.

Anyway,madrasah today was okay. And I was so tired I could have slept in class.

Well,I slept at 3 yesterday. I logged off from the computer at around 1 and wanted to sleep already but my mum just had to browse through the channels and stop at HBO. Just Like Heaven just started and yes,I LOVE THAT MOVIE! It's so funny and nice.

So I watched the full movie and slept only at 3. :/

Oh and I got back my MUIS PSLE result. When I got it I was like okay,done it. Got the results. Okay. I failed one subject which was Dianah(combine of Fiqeh and Tauhid). I was shock that I got an A for Lisan Al-Quran. I kept on stopping at words I wasn't sure. How can I get an A? I have no idea.

The Dad just called and I shall make my way down now. Till then people!
{ 8:06 PM }

Yesterday was so so horrible. I was so pissed that I didn't communicate much with people like the mum,dad,uncle,aunt,sisters and cousins. Seriously,I could have gotten the term "NO LIFE" person yesterday.

Anyway,today,I wasn't in the mood to go out so therefore I didn't have any plans. I TRIED to do my homework. Well,I did attempt one or two Math questions though and ended up sleeping on the couch for 2 hours.

Woke up,and watched One Tree Hill. Had dinner. Continued One Tree Hill again.

We girls plus one woman were talking about Ah Meng and watched a Shuffle video. And then my mum was laughing at it. We watched a few other youtube videos also.

We were saying like Ah Meng has his memorial service tomorrow from 9am-11am. Then I said oh,then we go for Ah Meng's tahlil then the next week if Uztazah ask why we didn't attend madrasah then say la,

"Kite pergi tahlil Ah Meng Uztazah"

which means "We went for Ah Meng's memorial service."

But it's a pity that Ah Meng's gone.

Right now,my homework is still not done. Not even one. Oh well. Goodnight world! I've got class tomorrow.
{ 10:21 PM }

Oh and another thing Angela reminded me about.

Why do some people do things,make people angry and don't realise their mistakes? And when people ignore them and such or give them attitude,you get angry. They should've known what they did wrong and not question others. I mean yes,they can ask. But sometimes,it'll make them even more angry.

What's worse is that,they LOVE to tell the WHOLE world what conflict is going on amongst themselves. Seriously,that's just NOT the way. I mean imagine,you're the angry one and your friend tells people what's going on. And these people,will somehow have a bad impression on you. Won't you,just get even more angry?

And then when you tell people about him/her,he/she gets so pissed and goes haywire. Like hello,didn't you do that first? Lie obviously people will do that out of control cos they're so pissed at you.

Seriously,if you don't wanna cause trouble,think twice about everything you do. Realise it.

Realise it.
Realise your mistakes.
Realise what you did wrong,
Where you've gone wrong.

Say sorry.
And just pray
That they forgive you.
{ 11:21 AM }

Today was quite boring. However,playing virtual pool on msn with Izhar and chatting in a joint convo on msn with Fad and Ilmi was rather entertaining.

At around 8,went to Wak Sal's house cause she bought pizza. We watched Satu Jam on Suria. And it was really funny how the girl Fizah,was somehow related to my sis. Fizah's mum btw,was related to my mum in the first part. Fizah's sister,was related to my youngest sis. Sham was related to i shall not mention here but the sister should know. HAHA!

We thought the ending would be okay like the mum wasn't angry at her and all. But it kinda surprised me that her mum died in just an hour. She called her mum stupid before she left her house to send the pictures. when she came back,her mum died already. It was a form of regret la.

So yeah,note to all,never say anything harsh to anyone especially your parents or family members cause you won't know when they'll be taken away from you.

Anyway. Something bothers me somehow. You know how talking bad about people is really unhealthy. But what if you really don't like that person,so does it make you unhealthy?

Prophet Muhammad s.a.w never hated anyone or anything. Heck,I bet no religion teaches us how to hate. But how come we,the modern people of all races and religion,hate. Even the slightest bit,we hate.

And why do people talk behind backs? Im not saying I don't but really,where did all this come from? I mean shouldn't we clear things to make peace etc. I know some love to talk behind backs but they REFUSE to clarify things. When asked,they just go "Aiya,waste of time la" etc. But what the heck. Just one little mistake or misunderstanding,it can lead to hatred and such.

For girls,it's called bitching. I mean have you ever gone somewhere or met someone with a group of friends who doesn't bitch? I bet that's a no. Seriously,I think geeks and nerds bitch too. The MOST annoying part is girls can act pretty good you know. They're all so nice to you but behind,it's like WHOA! they go stabbing you like hell. Like they smile at you,ask for your help, or even you have to give in to them to not hurt their feelings. But behind they go "Wtf. What a bitch!"

In the end,it's whether you agree or you disagree. If you agree,then to heaven with you and the gang. If you disagree,to hell with you the best of luck. What about being in the middle you ask? Well,it depends how middle you are. If you don't hang out with either one,that's really middle. However, if you take sides,then it's kinda obvious.

But anyway,what I'm trying to say is,shouldn't WE be saving the world and be doing good deeds cause the world is definitely growing old. And all of us,who keeps up with these unhealthy stuff,will make the world even older and then it comes. In just a blink of an eye. Doesn't it scares you? The world will end someday.

To me,I will try my best to refrain from doing all these things. I bet everyone do. But in the end,it's the effort right? So yeah. I just hope that it'll work.

To people,who have read this. I'm sorry if anything ever did get out of hand and we couldn't help it cause we are in the end,girls. I hope you agree with me and not get too sensitive on what I wrote. Cos if you did,then well,you know. I guess it's a lesson to learn for each and everyone of us. Even to those we hate so much. It's all a matter of forgive and forget really. It's difficult,we know. Goodnight! God bless.

I still love you guys!

The world will end someday.
Just someday,
You wait.
And it'll all be over.
The skies will fall,
The lands will flood.
With love gone,
With lust gone,
With everything gone.
Saving one's self is all that matters.



{ 12:49 AM }

I just had to upload this. The comments are so heart painish if the girl reads it. It's a pity. The comments are just soo busted and people are like criticizing her. Quite kesian la but what to do,cannot control. Scold like free ah. Some of the comments were evil but funny.

tu laaa..lain kali bila bercinta jangan `kasi' semua!!skarang dia dah ada yang lain,lu ape yang tinggal??fitrah pompuan,nafsu 9 akal 1...

This is one. I mean if I were the girl,kena video tape all. It's how embarassing. And the guy,makkk... No comments.

Poor girl. I NEVER want to be in that position either guy's or girl's.

Mum's home,she's questioning me. I'm so tired of talking. Goodnight!

{ 11:58 PM }

My bed was worse by the way.

School was ok. We watched gunung ledang and I think it's kinda the nicest Malay classic.


And OH MY GOD! I actually PASSED my science!!!! I feel so happy cos I was "emoing" before I got my results. Scared that I was gonna fail. :D


Anyway,went to meet Mus,Syirah and Suri at KFC Bedok then we were planning where to go. First choice was East Coast,second was any of our houses.


Me: We go Syirah's house ah.
Mus: HAH? Syirah's house?
Mus: Handphone she don't let us see,what else her house?
All: HAHAHAHA!!

I was laughing my ass off at that. Hahaha!

We got stalked by two banglas and it was like what the hell. I would have gone up to them,grab their collars and punch them if they did anything. Tsk!

Suri had to go off. So the three of us went to Macs at Bedok Interchange cos Syirah was hungry. We talked for almost two hours there! Seriously,it was ALL about primary school stuff. It was just so nice to catch up and stuff.

Anyway,I'm gonna shower now. Right,late at night. Nevermind. I feel dirty. Goodnight!
{ 10:11 PM }

I have lovely roommates. Haha. Ilma started singing tattoo but it wasn't her voice I heard,it was still,Jordin Sparks.

Sha was being hardworking cleaning up her place. HAHA!

And I was being angry butttt I had them to cheer me up although they didn't know. And now you know. :)

Love you guys! <3

Goodnight World and Goodnight you,whom I'm angry at!
{ 10:17 PM }

While waiting for Krista,I shall blog about today.

Nothing much happened today. Didn't have Math so we went to the library. I read cos i had nothing to do. We were actually behaving not like last year when we're being sent to the library. Haha.

Had Geog and seriously,I was shocked by my results. Not gonna say it here cos it's really bad although I passed. Just passed in that case.

Had Guitar lessons and it was better this week cos i was in the Enthu.com mood. :)

Psychology was better also this week.

Anyway,I THOUGHT training was at 4pm. So when my clock read 3.30pm,I was STILL fixing my hole puncher that broke. Well,I fixed it by 3.45pm and it fell into pieces again. HAHA! So at 3.50pm I went down and saw the WHOLE group walking back from the Basketball Court! TRAINING STARTED AT 3.30PM!!! so jogged 2 rounds then gym.

My arms are already aching from 3 sets of climbing rope. Tomorrow MORNING track training andddd, DESSERT!! I am gonna be prepared for that I hope no matter how my body feels.

I shall go count my laundry,pack my bag and go for dinner. Till then!

Time passes.
Even when it is impossible.
Even when each tick of the second hand
Aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise.
It passes unevenly,
In strange lurches and dragging lulls,
But pass it does.
Even for me.
{ 6:48 PM }

Science was I SWEAR tough!! I was like SHIT! How to do?! I mean I can do,I understand but im unsure and seriously,the feeling SUCKS! There goes my A2. it was soo urgh! I could bang my head on the table a million times and still not get the answer. tsk!

Got back my Math results and I guess I did pretty well-to me of course. Not sure about how my mum would think. Anyway,I've got 7 more modules to go. :)

Training was not really tough but I seriously don't know HOW I could puke after my 150m. It was the easiest workout we've done for long intervals so far. 120,150,150. Now tell me,HOW IN THE WORLD CAN I PUKE?

Answer,maybe I ate too much after contact time and the food wasn't digested yet. I guess that's it and I went TOO hard on the second one said Mr Pedro.

SST was kinda dull. I started on Malay and gave up after attempting the first section of Paper 2. It was the UPPER SEC'S paper! What'd you expect? SO i just read my New Moon. My goodness,I think it's been ages since I LAST read.

Anyway,Nadhra is ALWAYS people's "bully" target. Behind closed doors,she will just get attacked and it's really funny though. I think she enjoys it too. But poor thing la. Haha!

I shall handle this laptop to Nurul Shafiqah now as she's gonna do her project work. Goodnight!
{ 9:16 PM }

I forgot to post this yesterday. THIS,is our programme bunker results. I have NO idea how ALL of us can FAIL the whole thing. EVERY ONE OF US GOT POOR! Funny to me though. I was laughing when I saw this. I wonder how they grade it this year. Tsk.

Madrasah was damn slack today. We only learnt Bab 20 on Kebersihan so I guess that's Akhlak? No no,I think it's Akidah. Alah,I don't know la. Anyway,yeah we learnt that. And I heard from Wani/Mardhiah that our class has 39 people! For a super duper small class,39 is a lot!! Our class is like 6 x 5 kind of class. And some people always come late,so they selit at the only walkway.

Good thing,you'll ALWAYS have a seat for girls. Sort of cos we come early. :)

My right eye is very red right now. I don't know why.

I've got Science tmr and I'm sitting here like an idiot doing nothing. Im kinda scared of the paper.


I shall go read up soon. :)

{ 4:02 PM }

Never underestimate the power of a pen.
They can hurt you although a bit,they still can hurt.

I was revising my Science and wanted to cover back only to miss it and pricked my finger. I wonder if ink is inside my bloodstream now. Oh well,it hurt right after I pulled back the pen.

I shall go for madrasah tmr. I HAVE to! Wani said I missed out a lot already. So bravass to me. And I don't even have that 2 year book! I am gonna be sitting on the inside tmr. Nowhere near Uztazah. hehe.

I am so sleepy today! I need another sleep right now.

And yes,I've not used much of vulgarities these days. Bravo to me.

I shall not sleep although I want to but surf the net on crazy things/world today/jobs(-.-)/music/art.. Well,you get the point. And maybe I'll share it here although I know people will find it boring. :/

Goodnight!

So now you'd better stop
And rebuild all your ruins
For peace and trust
Can win the day
Despite all your losing
{ 11:22 PM }

So I woke up at 1.30pm only to find myself still very very sleepy. Imagine if this happened in school,I will probably MISS school.

Anyway,i couldn't sleep last night. I haven't been able to sleep these past few days. When I mean sleep,I mean peacefully. Firstly,you can't close your eyes without thinking of anything. Secondly,when you start to think,you wanna open them up again to find a solution before you sleep. Thirdly,you just go what the heck and you think. Fourthly,this may take up to 2 hours. Well,that's the most i've gone. Lastly,your eyes just close but you're still thinking. This thoughts make you have dreams the whole night and when you wake up,it's like you NEVER slept.

That's how sucky it was. The after effects,you still feel sleepy after a "good" 12 hour sleep. But you can't sleep now because you've got important things to do like homework and such.

Well,you know what,I'd rather sleep than do work feeling sleepy.

Anyway,was talking to my mum about the Kuda Kepang thing. It's freaky and scary. It's like you're a Kuda Kepanger and the thing will enter your body,make you go "haywire" like eat glass and stuff and then you faint,the thing comes out and you're normal,you don't even know what you did.

So I told my mum,I would NEVER want to have a Kuda Kepang performance for my wedding even though ade darah Jawa.

Oh, Kuda Kepang is some Javanese wedding culture performance thing which I explained already. You know how some have Silat or anything. It's something like that. Only Java style.

oh and I've been reading and stuff and some are related. pretty cool.

And I'm off to an hour's sleep. Bye.

How do I know what is right?
How can I ease my fears?
If I do call you again,
Would the old wounds reappear?

And Happy Birthday Star Karat Valerie!
{ 3:32 PM }

Habibah is back! OMG! finally! The scent of home is wow! And I'm so tired right now. The house is asleep. My sisters are. Alinur just woke up to watch Princess Hours. Makkkk..

I HAVE BEEN SAYING A LOT OF MAKKKK!!!! like what the hell. Not happy,makkk. Nonsense,makkk. It's like a replacement of sial ah and such.

So dinner sucked for me cos like got angin in my stomach. I couldn't train today. tsk.

And my mum is nagging at my maid. It makes me wanna plug-in and blast the music.

LIFE IS DIFFICULT,I DON'T LIKE IT.

makkk. perut senak. shit.
{ 11:17 PM }

Yesterday

We had half day. It was just an ordinary day. Then we watched videos before training. Trained at Macritchie. Did 40m and 30m then 400m! It was his desert. Seriously,it was tiring.

THen we had fire drill. It was okay la. Like all of us kinda messed up in the beginning. Haha. then talked and slept. :)

Today

Had History test. It was okay i guess. then English then went for lunch. Went back with Shafiqah then bought food. Came back and watched One Tree Hill. seriously,I haven't watched it in a longgggg time. I want my Season 4. and season 5's playing already. how sad. Im so bored. Training's gonna start soon. so see you at home! :D
{ 2:29 PM }

Habibah Najihahbi
Singapore Sports School
Track & Field♥
04-47;08-46
18th July 1994
HABSTERAMA LJ