Saturday, May 5, 2007
I just messed up my life world. there's some shit problem going on with this dang page. u know what. there are times when I feel so hyper but I guess those days just go away. served me right when mus doesn't even care abt me. ohwells. i guess i have to move on.and i wonder why it's so easy to walk out of ppl's life but when u wanna walk back in,u feel so different. like u dunno where this is gonna go. and you know what world? i just frigging walked out of 2 ppl's life. i dont even have the mind to study for math or hafal the surahs. the fact that im having migrain and some emptiness in the stomach,just adds on to the misery.
ppl may think. oh this girl. joker,damn hyper etc etc etc. but hell no,they don't know me. i dont hate life cos life is for me to make it good or bad. but the obstacles are like getting higher like raising the height of hurdles. and it just gets more difficult. but what can i do? nothing. i seriously seriously need a break frm life. but how? everywhere i go,there must be sth going on.
oh shit life. why am i making stupid decisions? im making it worse and not better. my life is suddenly so different. i dont enjoy anything anymore. exclude track pls. i will never and never quit track. that's for sure. but i find my social life going way down. like it's leading to hell and not heaven. gosh.
LOVE.
what and why love? when you're all ignored. love is something i just dont understand. family and friends. right. so i go back every wkend but the love ain't there. friends. love is like nothing. you're ignored blablabla. so why love? what is exactly the definition of love?? god.
i just wish to be left in alone in a rm. not knowing anything. i dont feel like going to school anymore. i dont know why. ohshucks. life had never been this bad. seriously. is it depression? am i suffering from one? ohgod. please help. im loved but i dont feel it. im cared but i dont feel it. life is great but i dont feel it. what am i to do? sometimes i just feel like i can't breathe and can't even move. why is that so? like now. oh shitty life. sighsighsigh.
i'll stop blabbering now. take care yea blog?
`Najihah<3
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