Thursday, May 31, 2007
I haven't been updating lately. i know. like what the hell. well,i didn't have the mood to blog like for the past wk. been busy lately. and then since the holidays started, i haven't been using the comp lately. ok ok. i confess. im H-O-O-K-E-D on one tree hill. and guess what. season 4's coming out. haha.Well anyway. Haven't been doing much lately. just hanging out. chilling and just trying ot bear the pain.
I still feel kinda emo now. like gosh,today has got to be the worst day of my life ever since i lived it. the feeling was like crap and still is.
What do you call yourself when you lock yourself in the room,listening to real soothing songs and read poems that are somehow related to you at that point of time? L-O-N-E-R. LONER..
Yes,and that's what i've been doing since 2?? watching one tree hill. reading tears for water poems by alicia keys. listening to jazz??? reading some old stuff i bumped into. gosh i think i actually was relaxing myself for the FIRST time.
Let's see, i stared at the mirror and just burst out not laughing but crying. i mean like i kept asking myself. is this the person i wanna be? hell yeah it is. but what's up with it going haywire?
For the first time AGAIN,i miss school. well,being alone and locking up myself in the rm sure was good.
I think i've babbled too much. I kinda feel pretty bad today. I've been sobbing,i've been laughing,i've been feeling weird lately. maybe one tree hill makes me wonder into my fantasies but who cares? i mean no one does right.. so yeah.
LIVE IT.
