I haven't been updating lately. i know. like what the hell. well,i didn't have the mood to blog like for the past wk. been busy lately. and then since the holidays started, i haven't been using the comp lately. ok ok. i confess. im H-O-O-K-E-D on one tree hill. and guess what. season 4's coming out. haha.

Well anyway. Haven't been doing much lately. just hanging out. chilling and just trying ot bear the pain.

I still feel kinda emo now. like gosh,today has got to be the worst day of my life ever since i lived it. the feeling was like crap and still is.

What do you call yourself when you lock yourself in the room,listening to real soothing songs and read poems that are somehow related to you at that point of time? L-O-N-E-R. LONER..

Yes,and that's what i've been doing since 2?? watching one tree hill. reading tears for water poems by alicia keys. listening to jazz??? reading some old stuff i bumped into. gosh i think i actually was relaxing myself for the FIRST time.

Let's see, i stared at the mirror and just burst out not laughing but crying. i mean like i kept asking myself. is this the person i wanna be? hell yeah it is. but what's up with it going haywire?

For the first time AGAIN,i miss school. well,being alone and locking up myself in the rm sure was good.

I think i've babbled too much. I kinda feel pretty bad today. I've been sobbing,i've been laughing,i've been feeling weird lately. maybe one tree hill makes me wonder into my fantasies but who cares? i mean no one does right.. so yeah.

LIVE IT.
{ 9:36 PM }

kakak: i editted this pic. and so.. i upload it here for you k. muahahha.



the two pics. love love. especially the last one. nicee! kiss kiss kiss. hahaha.


signing out-Kakak.


{ 8:10 PM }

we are family!

I find this the nicest picture of ME!





ok. It's Syafiq's birthday today and i owe him a present. (:



HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ!

Alright,this is the best picture i can get. (: it's not too bad. (: once,again happy birthday before it turns 20/5! alright. gotta go back study or slp. got jawi and fiqeh tmr!

`najihah<3

Labels: outing

{ 11:17 PM }

In school now. So far,my wk's gone good. Had academy outing yesterday and boy did we have fun. we had like truckloads of it. went dragon boating. we went for war and all of us were like seriously drenched. the water's disgusting. haha. but i rode there before. hated the water. but overall,dragon boating at kallang was fun. after that we went to parkway to eat and shop a little. i swear i hadn't eaten macdonalds since like march when i was in perth. but ohwells,have to control my diet. HAD SERIOUS FUN!! :)

anw,i made a new friend! sonia. she's so nice and funny. haha. so cool. oh and someday's dinner was so nice. but stupid me wasn't patient enough to wait for the mayo for the salad. haha. so... i put chilli sauce. then a few secs later,the mayo came. i was so pissed. haha. and it didn't taste nice. haha. ohwells,update when i come back tmr or sat. gtg do my work. :)

`Najihah<3

Labels: School

{ 11:08 AM }

It's sunday and i so think im gonna fail my dang tajwid. haha. Won't get shocked if i got a 0 or 1/20. seriously,i didnt know a single thing written there. haha. Solat was ok. went pretty well except for doa qunut.

Something totally grossed me out last night. Was about to brush my teeth before going to bed and when i was abt to apply toothpaste,i saw this small cockroach on its cap. i was like EEEEWW! i washed the toothpaste and my toothbrush like thoroughly. haha. so then was telling myself this is what u get staying on lvl 2 and the bathroom is somewhere near the chute. gosh...
I dreamt of weird things man. Like sst was at the life sciences lab then my pen kept slipping off my hand. opp me was aqilah and sam ong. had no idea why they were there. weird. then somehow the vending machine was placed under the boys block(it was a diff and nicer block). was so called hanging out wth sam ong. again,weird. then met angie and queenie. sam ong had this sad face on her like got nobody to hug(cos angie hugged me). was abt to say sth then. then i dont know what happened,i was chasing them. there were like disgusting insects starting to crawl on my leg. yucks. i was chasing queenie and sam ong while carrying some white cloth. gosh. I actually think it was uber weird. ohwells,dreamsssss.

Alright. heading to seoul garden for some family lunch? so yea. will try to update during school. (:

loves,
Najihah<3

Labels: dream

{ 1:02 PM }

Finally! the page! haha. ok. it's sat now and im to update on the things that happened like a wk ago. haha. ohwells. let's just start with...

Sunday
Reached school attttt 830? yup. 830. hanged out with the family while waiting for hin ann to reach school. spending time with my family before going up is like a fortnight thing cos like my dad has to go to work fornightly. well,last wk was one long one. it was great. get advised by my dad and mum. (: then went to hin ann's rm cos i didnt really wanna hangout at the void decks or wth ppl. her rm environment,LIGHTS etc is like so comfy. how i wished i overnight-ed there. anw,studied in her rm. and thanks bhaama for the sweet! (: i liked it. few mins after i settled down,balpreet told me to meet her at rec rm. so yea,she and ama interviewed me on the syar'riman thing. blablabla. i stayed quite long in hin ann's rm. didnt wanna go back actually and it was sun. who would check? haha. so yea,left my card and mp3 there. hehe. CARELESS!

Monday
Morning training. we actually trained like 1 step and thennn did 5 times 150. speed endurance? gosh. i actually survived it. and man are the thais fast. (:

Had english. What did i actually do there? I forgot. Had math test after break. I actually think it was manageable and admit it,easy. some ques required a lot of thinking. so yea. had eng again. again,i forgot what i did. think i slept in class? oh yeah. i did. after mr audi highlighted the points on the summary. heh. had contact time after that. ms fu. tsk. didnt really meet my target for my subs. esp science! ohwells,there's always other modules. got 5th in standard. haha.

So then we had telematch. was it fun! but it was in the gosh,hot sun. great for tanning. wait,why do i bother? im tanned enough. haha. i think the best was the one i partnered divya. hahaha! that was the funniest game! almost all of us failed. think the funniest was jannah and mariam. haha. ohwells,we didnt complete it. haha.

Watched spiderman 3 after that. I think it was great. i thought the snrs would get the lousy seats but in the end,we got it. ): slept quite early. everyone was tired. (:

Tuesday
Nothing much happened on tue. had mt karangan test. SCREWED. seriously had nth to write abt. i think that was one of those time that i didnt have any idea on what to write. haha. then read the discover and hemisphere mag. i read those cos i personally think astronomy's cool. i wanna study it. haha. astronomy is so cool can. think im addicted to it. slept through the whole eng cl. haha. math was ok.

Morning training. warmed up with the thais. they're actually cute. haha. did stretching in a grp. kinda weird cos we never did a whole track team(except runners) stretching. so yea. could see on yusof's face. IMPATIENCE! did drills,again lead by jannah and mariam. haha. after that,had to continue the drills we didnt do then drillnamics(if that's how u spell it).
Afternoon training,had gym. not much there. normal stuffs. squats,split jumps etc.

Wednesday
Didnt do much on anything. did mt session in library. finished up work given except journal. had history. sam was laughing the whole time after mrs gan said this funny line(to her). didnt have sci. instead went for this learning journey thing. was wth sam the whole of the tour then we split. did this activity which i did like last yr after PSLE under the WOW prog. so yea,knew almost all of the ans. Didin't have training. had plenty of time man before going for dinner and sst. sat near the vending machine wth ilma,khai and syafiq bidin. too many syafiqs la. so yeah. talked. and yes world,me and ilma are on good terms already. (:

Thursday
Sleep in. (: Had science. some plant adventure thing. kinda boring lame though. had mt tatabhs test again in the library. did ok i guess. again,read up on the discover thing. haha. cool stuff alright. had music. did this drum thing. haha. cute.

Training. Did medicine ball. stride 120. was actually dis appointed we didnt get to run the friendly relay cos then we would be running wth the much older snrs. coach slava team which consists of alicia,dipna,valerie p,balpreet. and then the icg team. jannah,gina,meixian,liangwei. nat team and thais. so yea. how i wish we ran wth them. gosh. were they fast. it was a close fight. anw,had sst. after that.... i totally forgot what we did during rec. i went down late. oh yeah. played pinball in rec. im sort of addicted to it. haha. then went down,hanged out. then went up. was in ilma's rm. so yeah. was standing at the door when sam ong and keshia came. i was like sial ah. haha. yes,i was shocked. she was funny. i laughed like at the actions she did. so yea. slept.

Friday
Morning training. gosh. the weather was so nice to slp in. all of us didnt wanna wake up. haha. but sadly,we had to. we just did warm up then that's all.

School. nothing much for math and science except another ws to be done for science. geog was ok this time. was actually interested in them that day. me,jovi,athirah,jen whee and ivan skipped 15 mins of math olympiad. spent 10 mins in library. haha. math olympiad is so boring la. and i think all of us bullied the tch by saying it was already 1215 when it was only 1210. haha. so had lunch together. went back to hostel with jovi and athirah. i think jovi's funny at times but he's a bit hot tempered. oh wells. had pep. slept almost throughout it. haha.

Was all fresh for training. ran under the blazing hot sun! did blocks. sand 3 times 2 sets then track 2 times 2 sets. after that came horror but i survived it. 3x300. haha. i actually did pretty well. did 53 then 52.58 then 52.07. was satisfied actually. ended pretty late cos we chit chatted a while. yes and it's so easy to settle stuffs wthout arrian and val ard. guess we have to work it out. showered and made noise. haha. me and hamizah of course. i think she's a joy la but she has to watch who she mixes with. (:

Saturday
didn't do anything much today. morning jogged with my sis then helped out with tps training. (: gosh are they cute. so yea. went to aunt's house. i fell aslp so after i woke up then showered. haha. hand had pins and needles cos i slept tiarap and my head was pressing hard against my hands. so yea. was kind of painful. then shifted to the sofa to slp. haha. woke up at 5. heh. tired man. anw,got my new spikes. it looks nice. i wanted the nike lisista la. it's damn gorgeous. ): nvm,there'll be nicer ones. haha. ok then. think i blogged enough. see ya world!

loves,
Habibah<3
{ 7:13 PM }

I just messed up my life world. there's some shit problem going on with this dang page. u know what. there are times when I feel so hyper but I guess those days just go away. served me right when mus doesn't even care abt me. ohwells. i guess i have to move on.

and i wonder why it's so easy to walk out of ppl's life but when u wanna walk back in,u feel so different. like u dunno where this is gonna go. and you know what world? i just frigging walked out of 2 ppl's life. i dont even have the mind to study for math or hafal the surahs. the fact that im having migrain and some emptiness in the stomach,just adds on to the misery.

ppl may think. oh this girl. joker,damn hyper etc etc etc. but hell no,they don't know me. i dont hate life cos life is for me to make it good or bad. but the obstacles are like getting higher like raising the height of hurdles. and it just gets more difficult. but what can i do? nothing. i seriously seriously need a break frm life. but how? everywhere i go,there must be sth going on.

oh shit life. why am i making stupid decisions? im making it worse and not better. my life is suddenly so different. i dont enjoy anything anymore. exclude track pls. i will never and never quit track. that's for sure. but i find my social life going way down. like it's leading to hell and not heaven. gosh.

LOVE.
what and why love? when you're all ignored. love is something i just dont understand. family and friends. right. so i go back every wkend but the love ain't there. friends. love is like nothing. you're ignored blablabla. so why love? what is exactly the definition of love?? god.

i just wish to be left in alone in a rm. not knowing anything. i dont feel like going to school anymore. i dont know why. ohshucks. life had never been this bad. seriously. is it depression? am i suffering from one? ohgod. please help. im loved but i dont feel it. im cared but i dont feel it. life is great but i dont feel it. what am i to do? sometimes i just feel like i can't breathe and can't even move. why is that so? like now. oh shitty life. sighsighsigh.

i'll stop blabbering now. take care yea blog?

`Najihah<3

Labels: life

{ 10:42 PM }

I'm in class now. omggg! got like 3/10 for kolokasi thing. hahaha! i was like anyhow put in words but ohwells,there's always other modules to STUDY! the point is i didn't study for kolokasi. haha. peribhs got like 19/20. not bad.

maybe I should review about the whole wk when i get back hm like tmr. :)) let's see,math 20% module test is tmr and im suppose to revise like really revise. I didn't top any subs for m3!! :( nvm. module 4 im gonna study for hist,geog,SCIENCE,math and eng. malay is like left wth tatabahasa and karangan. hope i'll do well. :)))

let's slack after all malay tests are over. hahaha. we'll watch movie,eat macs breakfast. the thought of it is so nice. i'll save the fun parts and others for tmr. :) till then see ya!

loves,
Najihah<3
{ 11:22 AM }

Habibah Najihahbi
Singapore Sports School
Track & Field♥
04-47;08-46
18th July 1994
HABSTERAMA LJ